Waiting Forever

Each day brings reality. It brings a journey, waiting to do that "something" that will make me happy. But every day, it seems like I'll be waiting forever. Truth be told? There hasn't been a day that I've been truly satisfied with everything that was said or done by me or by someone else to me. & every time I think about it, it makes me further realize how much I take life for granted..by not doing nearly half the things I aspire to do. People always say "live life to the fullest" & I'm ashamed that I don't live it the way I want, let alone to the fullest.
There's so much I want to do. so much I want to say. so much I want to explore. I want to find my passion in life. I want to have good friends that I can talk to about anything & can really have fun with. I want to enjoy what I do in life and enjoy the people I have around me.

But days go by and I feel like this is unattainable. I feel like I'm being hidden from the world & I'm being trapped inside a box where I mostly stay to myself. I'm accustomed to being on my own. And as much as I want to try, I feel like I just can't find my place in the world. I live everyday and feel like I barely exist. I'm waiting for a change and feel like I'll be waiting forever. My environment has more control over my life than I do. Maybe all I need is time or maybe I'm just waiting for that "something" to bring me to life. Either way, I feel like it'll never happen & I'll be waiting forever...

This may be new to you ; what can I say? I'm good at keeping feelings disguised & unaware to people around me. It's not good, but it's part of my puzzle. & this is just a piece.


*it just got personal .

The Era

" I want things to go my way.
But as of late a lot of ishh been goin' sideways".
- Quote from a very wise man named Aubrey
or some of ya'll may know him as Drizzy.


Done with my job. Rest of my summer is looking real iffy .
Blehh . I wanna go back to school; back when things made sense.
Ain't tryna do nothing but go to college . ---- 'I just wanna be successful '.

Might be off to Princeton in a few days .
Anytime spent AWAY from home is GOOD times !
So yeah, until next time...I end this sincerely, Monaa that is.




RIP Michael Jackson .

The Beginning

Today is the day you've officially been somewhat invited into the happenings of my life. Major milestones soon to be documented here. Time will bring the expected and the unexpected .



Starting here...right this moment .
Congratulationsssss .